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this is THE DAY!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

F U C K you!! :D haha. am i too rude? hee. i hope it gives you hell baby. HAHAHA. Dear diary i wanna tell my secrets coz ure the only one that i know who keep them. iknow u’ll keep them,and this is what ive done. ive been a bad,bad girl for so long. i dont know how to change what went wrong. Ddy’s little girl when he went away.what did it teach me? that love leaves.yea. yea. this is the hardest story that i've ever told. happy endings gone forever more. i feel as i'm wastin evryday. this is the way he left me. im not pretending. no hope. no love. no happy ending. HESH! today is the day. THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! GRR!

H E A R T B R E A K E R u've got the best of me lah! but i just keep on comin back incessantly. why did you have to run ure game on me? hah?! HUH! i should have known right from the start. yeah. you'd go and break my heart. well. when u go dont ever think ill make you try to stay. okay BABY?? ;) hahah. sumtimes i cry so hard from pleading. so sick and tired of all the needless beating. i dont want to waste another day. uhh. im trying to make things right. but u shove it in my face. and all those things u've done to me, i cant erase and i cant keep this inside. it's time to say goodbye.


on the first day that i met u. i should have known to walk away. I should've told u,u were crazy!and disappear without a trace.but instead i stood there waiting,hoping u would come around. but u always found a way to let me down. :( ARGHH! FUCK lah! and after all the things ive done for u,u never tried to do the same. it's like u always play the victim. and im the one u always blame. what the fuck?! arghhhhhhhhhh!!

last two days,u ckp u x nak tipu i dah. mula mula i tak paham. and then u told me that u ade first girl. and im the second. and i pulak mcm org bodoh terkejut tak tau apa apa. tiba tiba j u ckp cmtu. and the next morning,u text me. cakap ada third person la pulak. HAIH. sumpah mcm sial perangai you. FUCK OFF lah weh! i tak puas hati. u dah cpl dgn die. but npe accept i that time?! HAH?? ouh yeah. nak buat spare part lah nh.HAHAHAA. WELL DONE! ;) ouh mybe u accept i just because bila u boring i j yg always there for u kan? because both of them busy. right? haha. haihh. syg,i penat mcm mne pon. if u text me,ill reply. kan? but you? sket2 busy. busy j memanjang. hah. duhh! sumpah tak paham la. then ckp belakang. mmg patut pun sme budak2 yg rapat dgn i tak suka u. it is because ure fcuking rude attitude. makin lama u makin jauh. i dont know why ure so far away. HUH. ure starting to love me back?hah. wtf?! u made me believe syg. :( tu sme ayat nak cover j. (mcm aku bodo sgt.) i dont need no apologies. im not looking for no sympathy. all im asking for is for ure honesty. susa sgt ke?

could u be with her? or was it just a lie? she doesn't catch you like i do!! words screaming in my head. why did you leave? and i cant stop dreaming.watchin you and her. when it should have been me! i know im not the best for you.gf plg teruk dot laa. mmg bole menang award. i ni the pain in the ass. mybe im ure WORST gf. but i do love u. and mybe u need THE BEST and the best is not me. KAN? haihhh. i betcha she dont love u like i do. she's not giving u all that u need. dont even fool yourself lah. HELL yeah! She will never win this race. yea yea. through all the ups and downs. i was always there for u. and now u think bout sumbody else?! WHAT THE HECK?! u know i treated u right. cant u see? huh??

when i told u I LOVED YOU those three words would always be there from the start.


today,u walked out of my life. and today ure words felt like a knife. but what do i know if ure leaving all u did was stop the bleeding. but these scars will stay forever. bby, all i had to say is goodbye. we're better off this way. coz everything were been through and everything about u seemed to be a lie. and it made me learn to hate you. haih. i dont wanna care about love. and i don't wanna care about us. i dont wanna care at all anymore! now this love thing i wish i never felt it before.

...... to be CONTINUED.....


xoxo ♥,
3:12 AM